I love spring. There’s something about the hope in it that moves me. I want to believe that a difficult season is followed by a happier one. In times of struggle, I will often remind myself of the words in Psalm 30 that say, weeping may last through the night, but joy comes with the morning.
For many years, getting through winter has felt like a struggle for me. But something inside me has been changing for awhile. Oh, I still love spring and I’m happy that it is coming. But I didn’t dislike winter this year like I usually do. I didn’t fight against it. Instead, I decided to embrace it. Let winter be winter has been my motto during these cold months.
Because even though I don’t like ice storms and freezing temperatures, I do like steaming cups of hot tea. I do like my cozy purple winter coat. I do like unexpected snow days that clear my calendar and give me permission to just hang out with my boys.
I have been learning a valuable lesson about seasons. They all hold purpose. This winter has been a season of personal growth for me and I’m actually a little sad to see it preparing to leave. This is the winter that I found a friend in myself. Day after day after Matt and the boys had left for work and school, I would sit in my quiet house. I would read things, listen to things, and pray.
Sometimes I would ask hard questions out loud and listen for answers. I cried a lot and I got really mad sometimes. But then I began to let go of some things I had been holding onto for a long time. I took an honest look at my life and my decisions. It’s been tough sometimes. It’s been cold sometimes. But it has been a journey that has led me to a greater peace with myself. And it was worth every step.
Daffodils are my favorite flowers. As I drive through our town, I am beginning to see their happy blooms everywhere. They were down there under that cold, hard ground all along. With the right amount of sunshine, that same ground began to thaw and somehow they know it is time to rise up and be seen.
I feel like I know where they’ve been. For the first time in my life, I also feel like I know how they finally break through the covering that hid them in order to reveal the beauty that was there all along. Peace!